Motherhood Anxiety
I will admit to you that I'm starting to feel a bit anxious over my impending motherhood. I wonder if I am fit to even be a mother.No doubt, women have been entering motherhood since the beginning of time. But, not all women are good mothers. I realize that all of us have different ideas of what is important in a mother, and that these are all pretty subjective things, but here is a short list of what is important to me:
- Mothers should be loving and nurturing. They should be quick with a hug and a kiss, and very accepting.
- Mothers should be accessible. They should be around to share thoughts and explain things.
- Mothers should be reliable. They should be able to help you with Math homework or expand a theme, correct grammar and quiz one on spelling words.
- Mothers should be fun, balancing lessons and discipline with large doses of the absurd and amusing.
- Mothers should be able to bake cookies and cupcakes so that birthday parties are fantastic and magical.
- Mothers should always leave room for the possible. Ideas should never be so cut and dry as to stifle thought, question, or creativity.
- Mothers should always have band-aids and stickers.
- Mothers should have rules, but these too must be livable, workable, and not stifle creativity.
- Mothers should be soft and loving, wipe away your tears, and be your staunchest ally and defender.
And a million other things.
It may or may not surprise you that some wonder if my children will be little automatons, living in tiny little boxes drawn by yours truly. Nice, huh? Are my children likely to be grubby, ill-behaved idiots? I certainly hope not. But I doubt they'll be so rigid and refined as to resemble robots either.
Yes, I prefer that my world have order, but I don't insist that the beds are always made! I prize punctuality, but I don't require military marching.
I don't know what kind of mother I'll be, but I'll figure it out. Eventually.
