Returns
My maternity leave is coming to an end and I will be returning to the rat race on Monday.I am looking forward to it and dreading it as well. I am looking forward to getting out of the house and feeling like a productive member of society again. I am eager to catch up on current events and the blogosphere and my work email box (which likely has thousands of unread messages).
I am dreading leaving Bunny Boop each day. I am afraid that I will miss her smiles and her firsts and that she will resent me for my absence. I am afraid that she will forget the sound of my voice and the comfort of mommy and Bunny Boop cuddle time. I will wear the guilt like an albatross, like all the working women who have come before and all those who will come behind.
So, while I am eager to get my nose back to the grindstone and have hours where I don't change a diaper, I also dread the anxiety of not being able to look at her face and make sure she is okay.
What a taco. Taco Hell.
Labels: Bunny Boop
